had a dream that i was going to see autechre perform live soon. i felt nervous. the venue was close so i walked instead of taking the bus. i get in when they open the doors. but for some reason, i leave before they begin.
im with my parents in the car. i tell them about it. the sun is bright. we drive on ----- street and head for the bridge. the left side of the road has a huge wall of snow, like at least 100m. i ask them to drive me back because i only missed 10 minutes, which would leave me with 1h20 of the set left.
i get in and its surprisingly empty. the space is large, dark and blueish. some people are sitting and studying. some people are sitting there just looking drunk and depressed. some are simply dancing. i find B, i think it was them. i sit with them and some other guy on his computer. i get drunk, very drunk. i talk about modern design with B and we analyse this minimalist yellow desktop computer on the ground. some woman crashes it into the wall.
im very drunk. my fear of vomiting comes to mind and im anxious. but i remember ill be fine. i get mad at the guy on his computer because all he does is annoy people online.
i decide to head back home because of how drunk i am.
overall feelings: liminal, weird, anxious.